God's Little Acre
Lord, make way for gold
the girlfriend experience
chelsea's work
Trash Humpers
broken, faked, MADE
Wednesday, March 16, 2022
recents: notes
Saturday, September 11, 2021
CONTRA BAND: Bad Dads
Parents juggle many responsibilities, but they hold a singular purpose -- keep their child alive.
A spate of pandemic movie releases feature a new paternal archetype -- the Male Nihilist.
Friday, January 15, 2021
death drives, ending lives.
Smiley Face Killers (2020) has bogeymen. They have lived inside your thoughts and expectations since you were small. They lingered; biding time in the corners, outside the light. They will hide in a closet, shadow you on your bike; force you to recall your view in the world as a child-- open to suggestion; independent of thought, yet dependent on others to help protect you.
We wear false faces. The symmetry of a young jock's visage veils the disruption his bipolar disorder wreaks. Smiley Face Killers points to this mental state and this pandemic time: We mask and we separate, failing to distinguish ourselves from another. The scenario proliferates the confusion of people who lack a simpatico between interior and exterior, indicating psychic crisis. The voice inside us is suggestive, yet strong, saying now is the time to drown yourself and die.
As the dissonance between one's FACE/MASK and one's interior widens, the crisis grows. Encompassing a social breakdown, the Alpha dudes are pulled inward, into their doubts, their psychological weaknesses and into their solitude, away from others. The new Alphas (this rebel fiend army hunting us just out of sight) are also leaders, but of a dark murderous cult. The war simultaneously is waging inside a contained single person as well. It is indicative of a virus. It is manifested as psychological fracture and mental deterioration. The movie comments on how what nudged at us in our childhood bedrooms-- (is he under my bed waiting to kill me? Does a monster live in my closet? Will I soon be brutally murdered?) grows inside us all the while. Our dis-ease is progressive and chronic, having caused pathology to our organs as they developed.
As in Cosmatos' Mandy (2017) -- the mask of the face promotes the illusion of containment. The borders of the face of Mandy leak when she is permeated and consumed by a cult leader. Both films involve the constructed identity of a darkly murderous counter-culture cult as its conduit. But the horror is the reveal of the lack of distinction and autonomy that one human actually has from another. The lie is that we control our thoughts, our bodies, ourselves. Our wants can infect and even attract others to overtake us.
Smiley Face Killers is mythical in its fears while specific in its placement and time. The men of these 1990s placid Cali suburbs are alpha dogs slightly denatured; sensitive men and counter culture grunge movements of the 90s coloring the psychological status of preps and bros. It is the birth of (portable computer/phone) screens. Timeless terrors are grounded in contemporary social isolation (technical as well as medical.) Like Mandy, it is a film about a specific year. Mandy's pointed recall of 1983 is a parallel to Smiley Face Killers' magnification of psychic ills in the 1990s, though its deliberate 2020 release is grounding it in a modern plague.
Our dis-ease is multiplied and vague. It is pandemic. This disease is both the soil and the dirt along the grave; it breeds mental illness and suspicion and weakens our organs to keep us from noticing we are the target of many.. in turn, our destruction serves the earth and nourishes the few who live in the outlines, once scared children themselves, now vanquishing the monster inside us all, victorious at last.
In the logic of Smiley Face Killers the face is called Galiel. He must be killed. It is the name of the mask that pretends to be a face.
Sunday, September 27, 2020
GOING NOWHERE: Voyage and Experience in Quarantine
Sudden, life-affirming hugs occupy the close of two films I watched early on in the shutdown.
Voyage to Italy (Viaggio in Italia),1954, chronicles a married couple close to demise. Sanders and Bergman are middle-aged and wedded for years. They set out to escape each other, on a trip along Italy's coast. Scenes vacillate from pitted alienation of the two in a car and the couple roaming in and out of each other's immediate space; always an arm or two apart at cocktail parties.
The traveling couple meets eyes, but of the dead, not of each other. The stare disturbs some veneer that separates the face and the heart. The dead are not just immobile but petrified; frozen at the time in which they entered death. A look of recognition and warning bores through the visiting pair.
The Girlfriend Experience, 2009, details the experience of simulated lifestyle and love that capital can afford. The experience is of a moment in time; the bubble of the early aughts; a surge about to burst, and performed intimacy, leading to a larger performative experience of personality and love and the confusion regarding which is more material.

Voyage to Italy Finale: Bergman and Sanders embrace at last, in a crowd
Monday, September 16, 2019
Babylon_4 Mubi: I'm a Legal Alien in London

Sunday, November 18, 2018
I DREAM MYSELF ALIVE: MANDY's Giving Tree
1985.
A-Ha invites the world to hear synth songs composed of elements medieval, picaresque and fantastic. The songs constitute their 1985 album, Hunting High and Low. One song in particular is constructed in a melodramatic register but also serves up popular appeal, and it is titled "I Dream Myself Alive.""I Dream Myself Alive.
You can't deny.
There's something dark against the light.
All I can say,
It doesn't have to be this way."
The song is immersive, conducting a specific world, as the band does cohesively throughout the album. Beyond being music, playing it evokes a subjectivity; an enclosure; a world of feeling.
As does the movie Mandy.
1983.
Mandy. Panos Cosmatos, 2018.The synth sounds (composed by Johann Johannsson) haunt and bounce; reverberating the space they live in, like glass. Sometimes notes collect en masse, droning; suggesting inevitability.
Red Miller (Nicholas Cage) dreams himself into an unreal reality. He inhabits a holy space of his own creation. He works in the earth and the earth returns his effort and gives shelter. Love is a private inner world he and his lover Mandy Bloom (Andrea Riseborough) sustain by maintaining its borders. She illustrates; figurally and scenically aligned with the fantastical imagery of the Metal bands she sports on her shirts. Their story is romantic yet conscious about its interiority; hiding inside, being separated from some greater world. The elements coloring the story are oversaturated primaries, deep space in forestry environs, mythologic marital love, and the fantastic.
Early scenes: Red cuts trees for work. The trees his chainsaw cleaves in two prefigure the cleaving of oneness into twoness that occurs in dramatic graphic imagery as the movie gets in motion.
When Red returns home to Mandy at the end of his work day, their domestic sphere evokes a modern treehouse, with visible lumber and the sense of being a safe space within a natural organism.
"Handke wrote, 'The people left the grave quickly. Standing beside it, I looked up at the motionless trees: for the first time it seemed to me that nature really was merciless. So these were the facts! The forest spoke for itself.' That was beautiful, ...Handke did not lie...I was lying. Why? When I looked at a tree, I saw that it was blind and arbitrary, an entity that had come into being and would die, and which in the meantime was growing."
-- p 177 My Struggle, Book 6 -Karl Ove Knausgaard.
TITLE CARD: Shadow Mountains 1983 A.D.
Images track the Sacred as well as the Profane. The couple's womblike home counters the vastness of the wooded spaces as well as the heterogenous intentions outside of their own.
Mandy is the main character through which we experience a sense of anxiety of outside threats. The look in her eyes as she works in the shop, her awareness of another's gaze upon her; both a male in a car and another female, in person. Women are not holy to Mandy, and her modernness is sensed in her own agency by working for herself and knowing enough to be as untrusting of a woman than she may be a man.
Murmured in the background is an Unseen Voice of the Televisual: The voice of President Ronald Reagan, announcing, triumphantly, the spiritual awakening of America.
ENTER: THE BOGEYMEN.
Distinctions are as blurry as the image of Mandy's face when it falls under the subjective, longing gaze of "Psycho Jesus Freak" Jeremiah Sand (Linus Roache.)
Vision counters sound. The sound is rhetorical, and vision slowly states that what we know is moving into past tense. The definition of Mandy vs the definition of the evil sister is blurred because our view; our perspective is blurred. We watch Mandy walk home and we breathe in a dreamlike sense of her: romantic and elemental in the forest. The form of her silhouette is liquefied as she and the forest bleed into each other. Is this a fairytale princess; the viewfinder owned by adoring husband Red? Or is this the view of Mandy from the car window of murderous deviant Jeremiah Sand?
THE TREE OF LIFE VS THE BOGEYMAN.
PERCEPTION IS FLUID.
Good vs. Evil, or loss of individuation.
Silhouettes have boundaries. Their outline is what differentiates (for the watcher) the distinction between where the human ends and where the forest they are walking in begins. Boundaries (like these) bleed in Mandy. Key here is the distended timeline and sequence of Mandy's capture. But is this point of rupture (and major tonal pivot point in the film) or a nod to the creative process? The doors of perception allow one to enter a possible crisis: permanent loss of self. They also offer privileged rarity: pure experience outside of the self. To bend the mind and amuse at the loss.
Later on, in Knausgaard's book, he struggles with the Why and the How something is art.
A sense of boundary -less ness or selflessness is drawn:
"What does it mean to write? First of all it is to lose oneself, or one's self. In that it resembles reading, but ...the loss of the self in writing is in a different way complete, as when snow vanishes into snow...no foreground or background, no top or bottom."
p. 240
TOPICAL BOGEYMEN:
(in 1983)
Under the gothic pop terrain is a deeper reckoning: reaction to the radical political change of the late 1960s -70s and the freewheeling sexual mores. The political and cultural reactionaries came back to battle it all with Bogeyman. Feminism was born and then widely rebuked in 1983; a recall based on the horror of women who do not subordinate to men.
When Mandy is taken by the man who can't escape her gaze; he is the bogeyman not unlike how traditional women saw people like Mandy at that time. It was dawn in America, and women were pressed to maintain the traditional role. In the sequence depicting her kidnapped encounter, there is a shared recognition between Mandy and Sand; each horrified of the other, faces acidicly dripping into one another.
1) G-DLESS SOVIETS. (Perestroika, doomed attempts to alter a governmental economy.
Fear of sexual deviation and the loss of the couple: recent psychic symptoms from 1970s spate of
3) INDEPENDENT WOMEN -- WILL FORSAKE MEN. Because ERA almost passed..until in 1982 it failed to be ratified by the a few of the total needed number of states. Anxieties of the job market are exulted by working men facing the end of economic harmony as well as the end of heterosexual dependency.
Writing on the economic crisis of 2008-09, David Leonhardt reminds us of 1982 as he writes (NYT, Jan 20, 2009): "Is the economy only a little worse than it was in the last couple recessions, as some have said, and still a long way from the dark days of 1982?"
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| she exerts agency |
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| Trapped in his Gaze |
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| Are they so different? |
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| enjoyment, but solitary |
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| Desperate to reassert his own agency |
Tuesday, October 16, 2018
A STAR IS BORN: IT WANTS TO KILL YOU
Coming out of the stadium he is driven away and has a chance encounter with Ally (Lady Gaga). Their resigned eyes reflect one another.

Jackson is an addict, he is down, and so naturally, in his back pocket he's got plans. They're reserved for another day, one not too near, because they are not sure to occur. But he has an out. His disease endures, desiring him dead.
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